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  Well, why not? And to tell the truth I was fascinated by the press, although I’d never seen one worked and had no paper to use in such a machine. He pocketed the ten dollars. “A town like this needs a newspaper, anyway,” he added. “Now you can go into the business.”

  A week later I hired a driver and put my oxen to work hauling logs for the sawmill. When spring came I’d start them hauling to the railroad. The printing press I stored in the corner of John Sampson’s barn loft where it would be dry and out of the way, yet it stuck in my mind. A man might do a lot with a printing press. The winter settled in, cold and still.

  At the mill we had a square dance and a box supper. Each of the girls and women prepared a box with a supper inside, and these were auctioned off to raise money for new hymnals for the church. The buyer of a box got to eat with the girl who fixed it.

  By that time nearly everybody knew the good cooks, and of course, the pretty girls were obvious. Lorna was both, and her box brought the highest price of the evening, the prize going to Miller Pine. It was a fine, fun time, and the music sounded out over the cold snow. I went outside, looking off into the distance where the dark line of the road led over the snow.

  Where was Ninon? She would be nearly fifteen now ... maybe older. I did not know when her birthday was. Girls married at that age in the south before the War, and perhaps they still did so.

  Suddenly the door opened, letting out the sound of laughter and of someone singing. It was Pine ... and he was singing “Home, Sweet Home,” the song I’d first heard sung by Ninon. Lorna came up to me. “A penny for your thoughts.”

  “I’m lonesome,” I told her, honestly enough. “I know. Bendigo, Miller knows her. Knows Ninon, I mean.”

  “Knows her? How?”

  “He played New Orleans a few months ago, and Ninon was there with her family. One of his company remembered her as an actress and pointed her out. He said she was gorgeous, one of the most beautiful girls he had ever seen.”

  “She was that. She was lovely.”

  “Why don’t you go see her? She was in love with you, you know.”

  “She was a child. I saved them out in the snow that night and she made something of it. By now she’s forgotten me.”

  “I don’t believe it.”

  “Anyway, how could I go? She comes of wealthy people. I am a town marshal making fifty dollars a month. I own a few head of cattle, and my whole wealth represents what her folks might spend in a week ... maybe even in a day.”

  “Ben, you can be anything you want to be. Drake Morrell thinks so. So does Mrs. Macken.”

  We stood there together in the crisp, cold air, and after a bit I suggested, “You’d better go in, Lorna. It is cold.”

  “All right.” She turned to go. “Ben? Take me for a ride tomorrow?”

  “All right. You and Miller, if you want him.”

  “Ben, you’re silly. I’m not getting a case on him.”

  “On who, then?”

  “That’s just it, Ben. There isn’t anybody for me, either.”

  She was right, of course, and we had that in common. I waited, watching the stars twinkling in the cold night sky, listening to the sounds.

  There were a few lights scattered over the town but everybody was here, at the mill, celebrating. It worried me, so I went down the hill to Cain’s, opened the door, and went in. It was warm inside, and still. I filled a coffee cup, then got out my Winchester and my gunbelt.

  At the party I had been carrying my six-shooter in my waistband, but now I transferred it to the holster. Putting on my buffalo coat, taking up the rifle and my gloves, I went outside and closed the door softly behind me.

  They were dancing again, and I could hear the stomp of feet, the voice of the caller, and the whining of the fiddler and the pipe. Slowly, I walked down toward the street, my boots crunching in the snow.

  It was cold ... must be all of thirty below, and not a night when Indians would be feared. No Indian wanted to fight in cold weather, and they did not do it when it could be avoided.

  Slowly, I made the rounds, stopping at each store or house, just listening. When I reached the end of town, I stopped. Miller Pine, who had been a chemist before he became an actor, had opened an assay office, and it was now the last building on the street. It was dark under the awning, and I stood there, rifle under my arm, rubbing my gloved hands together to warm them. From here I could see down the road a piece, but I had a good view up the street when I turned, and a view also of Ruth Macken’s place on its bench.

  Just as I was about to start back up the hill my eye caught a flicker of movement, and I stopped where I was, looking up the hill.

  Somebody was up there ... Ruth and Bud were at the mill. I’d seen them only a few minutes before, noticing that Bud was probably the best dancer of us all.

  The movement had not been outside, but inside the house ... somebody had passed a window. Imagination? Maybe.

  I’d have a look. Walking out from under the awning, I went up the hill. It was a five-minute walk ... and it gave me time for thinking, for wondering.

  Who could it be? Everybody was at the party ... or almost everybody. Finnerly and his friends were not there, nor old Mrs. Wilson, one of the newcomers. There were a couple more.

  At the door, I paused, slipping the glove from my right hand to take the action of the rifle. With my left hand I opened the door. The stove was warm, its sides glowing red from the heat. There was no light in the room except that from a lamp with its wick turned low, and seated in Ruth’s rocking chair by the stove was my brother Cain. His pipe was lit, and he had both elbows on his knees. He looked up when the door opened. “I knew your step, Bendigo. Set down.” Standing my rifle close by against the wall, I pulled up a chair, then took off the heavy coat and my other glove. I put them down together on the bench. “Nice and warm,” I said.

  “I didn’t want her ... them ... to come home to a cold house. Bud forgot to bank the fire and it had burned to nothing.”

  “Lucky you thought of it. I was down by the assay office ... saw something move.”

  We sat there for a while, and I was uneasy. There was more to it than that. I remembered now that Cain had been gone for some time. He never did care for dancing, always kind of sat back and let Helen enjoy herself.

  Suddenly, Cain said, “Bendigo, you’ve got to ride out of here. Don’t take a chance on being caught here, don’t waste yourself in this place.”

  “It’s our town,” I said, surprised. “We built it.”

  “Bendigo, we built ourselves a place against the wind, but that was for us. Don’t let it be for you. There’s a larger world out there ... I don’t know what it’s like, really. I guess I’ll never know ... but I wish I did, I wish I had.

  “I got caught, Bendigo, I was caught in a trap I set for myself.”

  “A trap? You?”

  “I planned to go to New York, Bendigo. You know how it is with tools and me. I could always do just about anything, make about anything. I had some inventions ... just little things, but I had ideas. I wanted my own shop, in time, my own factory. I had big ideas, Bendigo, but I believe there was no reason why they should not have happened.”

  Well, I just sat there. I remembered now, when I was just a youngster, a city man who kept coming to town and wanting Cain to go with him, offering to put up the money for Cain’s skill and his knowledge, but by that time Cain was walking out with Helen.

  “I’ve been here before, Bendigo, when they were visiting ... just to sit and smoke.”

  “Does Ruth Macken know?”

  “I think so, but she’d never say anything, nor will I. You know, Bendigo, it is the easiest thing in the world to forget a man’s responsibilities, chuck it all, and go following some red wagon ... but it isn’t a man’s way.”

  “Helen is my wife, and we’ve grown along together. We understand each other, we mesh like gears ... and I’d never find another woman like her. I could go chasing off, calling it love or whatever a b
ody wished to call it, and I’d only prove myself a damned fool.”

  “The world isn’t built around people who do what they want to do, Ben, what they want regardless of who gets hurt. It is built by people who do what they should do.

  “You’ve been reading a lot... Plutarch, and the like. Well, the old Romans built what they had by being strong, inside as well as out, and they lost it when they began giving in, going the easy way. They lost everything, Ben, when they ceased to be men, and a man is one who does what he has to do when it has to be done, and does it with pride.”

  “Are you in love with Ruth Macken?”

  “Don’t ask that question, Ben. Don’t even think it. I am in love with Helen.”

  “Maybe ... just maybe ... had Ruth and I met at another time, another place ... well, who knows? Maybe she feels the same way, but I shall never find out because I don’t want to. I married Helen, and we’ve had warm, friendly, wonderful times together. We’ve the children, and we understand each other. Any damn’ fool kid can go tomcatting off after everything he sees ... takes no particular knowledge, skill, or much of anything.”

  Cain got to his fleet. “I grew up a long time ago, Ben. And I am glad I did. I miss the dream, but maybe if I’d followed the dream I’d never have found anyone like Helen.

  “The thing you have to remember are the years. Not the hours, not the days or nights, but the years. When you want a woman you want one you can live down the years with. I have been dreaming, too, Ben, not of anything I have wanted to happen, not of anything I expected to happen, but just a land of romantic thing that was there in my mind. But do you know something? I am glad you came up the hill tonight, we’ve had a good talk, and I don’t think I’ll be coming back here again. Let’s go back to the party.”

  We walked back down the hill, and neither of us ever mentioned it again. Snow crunched under our feet as we walked, the breath showed before our mouths, and we heard the music as we went toward the mill.

  Ruth looked up as we came in. She looked at Cain, and then at me, but she said nothing, nor did she move.

  Slowly, I worked my way around, speaking to people, stopping to talk here and there. Webb was standing off by himself, and I stopped there beside him, not saying a word. After a while he said, “Nice evening, Ben. We need more like this.”

  “You helped make it possible, Webb. You did as much as any of them.”

  “It was Ruth Macken and Cain,” he said, “and you.”

  “Webb, don’t you ever forget. You were always there when the going was rough. You never sidestepped, you never welshed.

  “You know something, Webb? I always knew you’d be there. I never even had to look.”

  “Thanks,” he said, and a little later he went out, and just at the door, I stopped him. “Webb, Foss ought to be here. You tell him we’d like it if he’d come up and dance a couple.”

  Webb stood a little straighter. “Shafter, we don’t need any ...” He stopped then and stood watching the dancers. “He’d like to come. He was blue about it, Ben. He was afraid nobody’d speak, nobody would dance with him.”

  “Tell him to come on up. Hell, Webb! This is our town! He was one of the first of us!”

  Maybe a half hour later, the door opened a crack and Foss stepped in. His hand was still bandaged up, but he had his hair slicked back.

  Well, I caught Lorna’s eye and moved my head a little, and she was over there. She danced with him, and Helen did, and then Ruth, and Mae Stuart.

  Miller Pine, he led the singing of “Darling Nelly Gray,” “Comin’ Through the Rye,” and “Annie Laurie,” and then we broke up, stood around outside talking a mite, but it was cold for much of that, so we went home in the crisp, still air, the snow sparkling with a billion tiny stars.

  One more time I walked around, making sure, from a distance, that Ruth and Bud got safely up the hill. They had a warm house waiting ... with some smell of tobacco smoke in it.

  Maybe that was just as important to comfort as a warm fire.

  I don’t know why it was, but that night when I went to sleep I was thinking of that printing press.

  Chapter 31

  Miller Pine had brought with him a half dozen novels as well as a sheaf of plays, some of which he had performed, some in which he had hoped to appear. He let me have these to read, and I went through them quickly, fascinated and amused.

  Anna Cora Mowatt’s Fashion; or life in New York was the first, followed by The Black Crook, by Barras. Then The Octoroon, by Don Boucicault, and Rip Van Winkle, as played by Joseph Jefferson.

  The days were bitter cold, there were frequent storms, and I found myself going again and again into the woods to haul fuel for the town. It was a task that needed all our efforts.

  There was no travel. The stage ceased to run, the roads and trails were deep in snow, but there was constant fear of the spring. The Sioux were increasingly restless, we heard, and with spring there was certain to be trouble.

  Several times I had gone to Sampson’s loft to look at the printing press. Drake Morrell had worked as a printer’s devil, or sort of errand boy and assistant to a printer, and explained much about it.

  Occasionally I visited the Indians in their dugout near Ethan’s, listening to their stories, talking of hunts and legends and stories of the past.

  Often in the evening we would gather at Ruth’s or Cain’s, talking politics, planning for the day when Wyoming would be a state, and of course there was much talk, and some joking about women’s rights. Most of us were in favor of women voting, and in our own private elections they’d been doing it all along.

  As marshal there was little to do. The bad ones had holed up for the winter, and ours was a peaceful people, too busy keeping ourselves warm and supplied with meat and fuel to create trouble.

  When the storm broke, Ethan, Bud Macken, and I saddled up.

  Ethan and I rode up to Ruth Macken’s before daylight, but she was an early riser always and had coffee on and breakfast making. “Sit down, you two ... and thanks for asking Bud. He’s been wanting to go.”

  “We’re going to scout back of Beaver Rim and maybe up the canyon. Maybe we can scare up a deer or an elk.”

  “By the way, Mr. Trask told me you could buy paper in Salt Lake ... for your printing press.”

  That made it almost too easy. The trouble was, there was no way a man could make a living with a printing press in our town, even if he could sell some papers to the other settlements that were filling in along the creeks.

  “There aren’t enough people,” I said, “but I’ve given it some thought.”

  “I am not sure, Ben. It isn’t the deserted place it was. There have been some new miners moving in on Hermit Creek. They moved into those abandoned cabins over there and are getting ready for spring. There’s some others on Willow Creek.”

  It was something to consider. Riding around over the country, I’d noticed a couple of small communities had sprung up, at least one of them abandoned shortly after the first snowfall.

  “Ben,” Bud interrupted, “there’s a paper published over at Fort Bridger now. Called the Sweetwater Mines. Mr. Trask left a copy last time he was through.”

  The three of us started for the hills. It was a quiet, sunny morning. The snow was not deep on the level, and as always the folks in town were short of meat. The game had left the low country because of the people around, so we headed up the valley.

  The Wind River Range was magnificent, covered with snow, only here and there a sheer face of rock showing black and bare against the whiteness. We saw rabbit tracks aplenty, but a man can starve to death eating rabbits ... there just isn’t enough nourishment in their meat ... and we were hunting bigger game, hoping for an elk or two ... if we were lucky a buffalo, although there were few of those around at any time.

  We hadn’t gone far when we saw two riders approaching. We pulled up and waited for them. It was Uruwishi and Short Bull.

  “You hunt for meat?” Uruwishi asked.

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sp; “Yes, and you?” “Also,” Short Bull said.

  “Ride with us,” I suggested. “I would learn from the wisdom of Uruwishi.”

  We rode in silence for some distance, riding single file and weaving our way through the pines toward the higher country. Around us was the stillness of winter, with no sound but that of our own movements, the creak of leather, the occasional sound of metal, the hoof fells of the horses.

  When we stopped again to let our horses rest, Uruwishi gestured toward the Big Horns, which lay off to the east. “Many days’ journey to the north there is a place, a place to see. It is a stone wheel... a Medicine Wheel.”

  “A wheel?”

  “Many days. It is high ... a high, far place where a man can look all around. The Wheel is of stones.” “Standing up?” I was incredulous.

  “On the ground. Many stones maybe so high” — he showed his hands two to three feet apart, moving them slightly as he spoke — “and many spokes.”

  “Who built it?”

  He shrugged. “Who knows? The People Who Came Before It Was Light... maybe the Little People. They were there.”

  “Have you been there?”

  “Once ... when I was a papoose. My father prayed there, to the Great Spirit.”

  He turned his horse slightly. “I think it fa a Medicine Wheel ... I think it is big medicine. I think many moons, many lifetimes ago people came there to pray, to sit in thought upon the grass around the Wheel.

  “On some of the ridges there are stone arrows that point the way.”

  “You say it was built long ago?”

  “Long, long ago ... it was built when the animals with long noses and long teeth were hunted. Men carved their bones then, and scratched upon them to count the moons, and to remember ttie planting times.”

  “Animals with long noses?”

  “Bigger than buffalo ... long hair. Noses they curled back when they charged. The people who lived before my people hunted them with spears, drove them into swamps, and stoned them for their meat.”